Honesty and Depth – Truth and Nothingness

When you suddenly think you or the world might be completely full of shit – or meaningless – or dangerous – or complicit, honesty comes to the rescue – and you understand  more of what honesty really is – how deep it goes.

When you think you’ve wrapped your head around it – and let the world farther in – and you go out farther into the world, if you go far enough, everything will begin looking like  bullshit again; through honesty you’ll see deeper

Once you escape the scariest possibility –  that reality is either bullshit or sinister; the relief is overwhelming. You’ve awoken from a dream just before the crashing plane you’re on hits the ground;  The immensity of truth further unveiled.

Whenever reality stops being what it seemed and you fear you might be a fool, or the world could be nothing, that’s the misunderstood parts unraveling. You’ll go deeper and deeper – until the world looks true again – patching the holes more honestly..

Honesty is both the willingness to see truth and the way to see it. As honesty grows – truth becomes more reliable and there’s less to unravel, more to believe.

Nineteen Things I’ve Learned About It.

1. If it feels good to do – somebody does it.

2. If they’ve been doing it and break a promise not to do it again – they’ll never stop.

3. If they accuse you of doing it, and you’ve never done it, they’re the ones doing it.

4. If you have to lie about it, you probably shouldn’t be doing it.

5. If both of you do it – you’ll do it more often.

6. The more eager you are for them to be doing it, the less they’ll want to.

7. If you resist doing it -they’ll want you to do it even more.

8. If you resist too much, they’ll find another to do it, or do it themselves.

9. If you each do it and never talk about it, then you both know the other is doing it.

10. If they say they didn’t do it, and you didn’t ask if they did, they’re doing it.

11. If a lot are doing it, and nobody’s talking about it -it’s probably really F??k?ng good.

12. If they tell you it’s really good, but they’re not doing it – probably really F??k?ng bad.

13. If doing it is bad for you, it probably feels good to do.

14. If your mother wants you to do it, how good can it feel?

15. If your mother forbids you from doing it – she hasn’t done it.

16. If your mother suggests you don’t do it – she’s tried it.

17. If your mother pretends not to know you’re doing it – she still does it.

18. If you make them stop doing it, they’ll never let you do it.

19. If doing it worked once, it will work again