I’ve given her countless chances – spent a billion words of text – lapped myself bending over backwards – to help her be fair, and care enough to keep me around.
She can’t control herself – or didn’t believe I’d go for good – one or the other. I feel sad for her – that I blocked her and kept her there. But, it’s all probably just a game = no way to know where the game starts or ends, and I’ve wondered if she’s ever really feeling.
It is lonely either way – but I have to stay gone this time – force myself to adjust to freezing cold. Must not go back to being coldly dangled, under a carrot – over fire.
When they haven’t called after a day or a week
When you’re still waiting as a month is approaching
When it’s different this time and you know it’s for good
When you keep loving more and they love you less
When you don’t reach out because they won’t respond
When they need no goodbyes and you can’t say goodbye
When they were your future and want you in their past
When you can’t sleep and you’d rather not wake up
When you don’t know how you’ll be happy without them
When you can no longer get them mad
When who you are stopped being enough
When you feel so alone that you want to throw up
When you can’t imagine forever without them
When you wonder if their love was just imagined
When nobody else will do
When the love of your life no longer wants you
And now about you:
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