Hmm…, Should I Choose Loneliness or Let Her Shut me Out & Choose it for me?

I’ve given her countless chances – spent a billion words of text – lapped myself bending over backwards – to help her be fair, and care enough to keep me around.

She can’t control herself – or didn’t believe I’d go for good – one or the other. I feel sad for  her – that I blocked her and kept her there. But, it’s all probably just a game = no way to know where the game starts or ends,  and I’ve wondered if she’s ever really feeling.

It is lonely either way – but I have to stay gone this time – force myself to adjust to  freezing cold. Must not go back to being coldly dangled, under a carrot – over fire.

When Losing Love

When they haven’t called after a day or a week

When you’re still waiting as a month is approaching

When it’s different this time and you know it’s for good

When you keep loving more and they love you less

When you don’t reach out because they won’t respond

When they need no goodbyes and you can’t say goodbye

When they were your future and want you in their past

When you can’t sleep and you’d rather not wake up

When you don’t know how you’ll be happy without them

When you can no longer get them mad

When who you are stopped being enough

When you feel so alone that you want to throw up

When you can’t imagine forever without them

When you wonder if their love was just imagined

When nobody else will do

When the love of your life no longer wants you

 


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