I know you are smart and can be very thoughtful. It seems you are somehow, for some reason, closed minded in your approach.
For example, instead of engaging with me in a process of imagining and creating ourselves, you focus on labeling, defining – diagnosing even.
Being closed to the “creating ourselves” concept would not be so bad if you were open minded about discovering. You cling to a dimension or aspect that you recognize and draw the picture; worse yet, you tend to identify negative patterns much more than positive.
I am not a static being, i am a constantly changing and growing, evolving creation. I believe a relationship should be the same. A good portion of my thoughts and spirit are on “meta” levels. I think about thinking about thinking about sort of thing. i feel about feeling about feeling etc.
What i am saying only matters to us insofar as, if you don’t look – or, if you are only open to seeing what you recognize, then you miss me. And, if you don’t see me, you cannot participate in creating me. And, if not this, and if I’m not doing all the same with you, then there remain’s little of us in the other.
If I can’t more and more see myself in you, or at least my efforts in you, and vice versa, then our connections remain purely transactional. This is shallow to me and I am much greater, i believe you are much greater, and I hoped we could make something greater.
I feel like we are an airplane – but we cannot take off because as soon as you saw wheels you assumed and insisted we were merely a car.