When they haven’t called after a day or a week
When you’re still waiting as a month is approaching
When it’s different this time and you know it’s for good
When you keep loving more and they love you less
When you don’t reach out because they won’t respond
When they need no goodbyes and you can’t say goodbye
When they were your future and want you in their past
When you can’t sleep and you’d rather not wake up
When you don’t know how you’ll be happy without them
When you can no longer get them mad
When who you are stopped being enough
When you feel so alone that you want to throw up
When you can’t imagine forever without them
When you wonder if their love was just imagined
When nobody else will do
When the love of your life no longer wants you
And now about you:
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I have decided to love with abandon. Come what may. I have previously withheld. Out of fear, out of the need to control. Out of the need for power. (as you state). Fuck that. I refuse to have my love dictated by another. If it hurts, I will feel the pain. For there is joy in just feeling.
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I applaud your course- a brave one -probably the only one that leads anywhere divine or transcendent. I hope you tell us about where this leads you.
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i can relate, at this time. fuck.
still in denial.
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I happy someone relates – but sad anyone relates. Painful stuff!
Thank you for reading and commenting. Hang in there. I’ve got free shoulder space if you need some.
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the lack of a proper goodbye is difficult. But even trickier when the hellos weren’t always authentic… if you gave her your best, and she didn’t honor that, then it’s her loss in the long run – small consolation now, but it will help in the end. Promise.
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The one who cares the least in a relationship – have the power – including the power to harm the other
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Yes… the ones who care the most get hurt the most. But being a caring person is an authentic power – not a power trip – of being a more loveable person than those who rip our hearts out will ever know. Guard your heart, but never ignore.
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It’s a fine line, though isn’t it? Guarding your heart whilst also trying to listen to it? My heart has great fantasies at times, so often I find it hard to listen to….
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It’s the razor’s edge… protecting the heart while trying to discern the truth of its song. Perhaps that is what intuition is? I have certainly been wrong many times… and I think we are go through phases – vacillating between then need to guard & the desire to risk. The age old story still being written.
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Absolutely what intuition is…..I guess the lesson is getting clear enough to hear the intuition? My thoughts thus far at least.
Your heart of hearts knows, it’s just being able to hear what it says.
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Well what I’ve learned more than ever is to protect the heart and do not give to anyone. I love my family, but don’t know if I’ll give it to a woman again, romantically. She can have my penis – isn’t as painful to have broken.
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True but there’s also no reward without risk…..They do say a life lived in fear is a life half lived.
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They do say that – and so did I in all the risks I’ve taken. No more risk of the heart – that can be nearly lethal.
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That’s a shame
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boobs
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Lol
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Nearly is the key word there… a broken heart can be healed if you give it time, and keep from ripping the stitches out. ❤
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😦
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indeed
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“When the love of your life no longer wants you”
– wants you or chooses you? Or do you view want and choice as the same?
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The same – perhaps mistakenly so
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Mistakenly so in your eyes perhaps….
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